If love is all pervasive, what pervades the pain of love!!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
No Title for this Day
Have you ever been NERVOUS to the core....I did for the first time...Yeah I know I know... Life mein bahut kuch first time hotha hain.....
Ok this is what happened to me....First my mouth dried up...I drank water but it would dry up instantaneously. Then my throat dried up and then even my stomach dried up...HUH never thought that could happen.
Then the stress pitched to the next level. Now my lungs forgot to breath. I had to consciously inhale with some force, to fill the little space that my lungs gave. But then, as if it was some unwanted filthy food force stuffed into mouth, my lungs would breath out instantaneously. Before my nose could breath out that air, my mouth would open up to ufffff and hufff it out. So I was actually breathing in with my nose and breathing out through my mouth with a rather high frequency and an awkward rhythm.
Now comes the topping to the whole situation. Most people who know me have noticed a manufacturing defect in me. I can blush for no valid reasons. My face easily turns red. But Jesus Christ, this was no defect. The blood gushed to my face, turned red, ears were feeling warm, rather hot, eyes filled with water, forehead and nose started to sweat in the chill cold AC room. By the way, it was drizzling outside. So it was not a hot weather to sweat at all.
By now since my nose was anyway half the time free not breathing out by the grace of my mouth, decided to give company to my eyes. Yeah it started watering like a leaking tap. OMG!!!! I forgot my handkerchief, I could see no tissues around.
Can it get worst?? Yes it did.... My voice box refuse to make sounds from then on. My mind blanked out, so I forgot what I had to say. Oh wait a sec...that didn't keep my mind silent. It raised a HAZAR question. What are you going to say now? Lets start from the beginning, but what is the beginning...Anyway just say something, anything....Do you realize you appear like the world's best moron? Whats the point, you have anyway ruined it so say anything...Look into the eyes, when you talk....Or if that is making you nervous you can just put your head down...Huh.....ON and ON and ON...............
THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE........... :(
Ok this is what happened to me....First my mouth dried up...I drank water but it would dry up instantaneously. Then my throat dried up and then even my stomach dried up...HUH never thought that could happen.
Then the stress pitched to the next level. Now my lungs forgot to breath. I had to consciously inhale with some force, to fill the little space that my lungs gave. But then, as if it was some unwanted filthy food force stuffed into mouth, my lungs would breath out instantaneously. Before my nose could breath out that air, my mouth would open up to ufffff and hufff it out. So I was actually breathing in with my nose and breathing out through my mouth with a rather high frequency and an awkward rhythm.
Now comes the topping to the whole situation. Most people who know me have noticed a manufacturing defect in me. I can blush for no valid reasons. My face easily turns red. But Jesus Christ, this was no defect. The blood gushed to my face, turned red, ears were feeling warm, rather hot, eyes filled with water, forehead and nose started to sweat in the chill cold AC room. By the way, it was drizzling outside. So it was not a hot weather to sweat at all.
By now since my nose was anyway half the time free not breathing out by the grace of my mouth, decided to give company to my eyes. Yeah it started watering like a leaking tap. OMG!!!! I forgot my handkerchief, I could see no tissues around.
Can it get worst?? Yes it did.... My voice box refuse to make sounds from then on. My mind blanked out, so I forgot what I had to say. Oh wait a sec...that didn't keep my mind silent. It raised a HAZAR question. What are you going to say now? Lets start from the beginning, but what is the beginning...Anyway just say something, anything....Do you realize you appear like the world's best moron? Whats the point, you have anyway ruined it so say anything...Look into the eyes, when you talk....Or if that is making you nervous you can just put your head down...Huh.....ON and ON and ON...............
THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE........... :(
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Toss
Is it heads, is it tails?
Is it the coin or the heart
Tossing up in air.
Heads the path switches
Tails the route twists
Yet what is it that changes
Not the frozen heart
Not the choice of path
Not the posthumous life
Not the waves of love
Not the stones above
Yet the coin is tossed
Yet the life paused
Yet the breath ceased
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